Masquerade Ball: Fight or Flight

We dressed up as trashed hookers (gangsta style) who got in a fight with each other (hence the black eyes). We played the part especially well, considering we actually were trashed.

I DID make it to the bins and I DID have a great time at Lisa's party, so I consider this weekend a success. As a bonus, I'm still feeling the effects of partying. I definitely forgot a lot of what happened Saturday night until I was reminded on Sunday, most of which I spent sleeping. I'm not sure if I'm going to class today and I only have 20 more minutes to decide before it's too late. I have a ton of work to do and I think I'll be less stressed if I stay home and try to get it done. I haven't missed a day this entire year and I think I should give myself a break. My only waking hours yesterday were spent on foodnetwork.com looking at recipes, motivating me to make an asparagus risotto (with sundried tomatoes possibly) and yummy salad on the side for dinner tonight. I have a few ingredients to pick up but I'm hoping it will work out. By the way, this is my way of inviting people today because I don't feel like calling. And I may be eating alone because I don't think anyone actually reads my blog. (And I don't blame them). But anyway, everyone is invited- just let me know if you're coming so I make enough food. I love having people over.

This weekend I realized a lot about myself. I have a lot of really wonderful friends and I mean REALLY WONDERFUL. I care so much about them that I don't think about myself. And I'm not trying to be selfish. I know that it's not healthy that my only source of happiness is through other people. I don't know what point I'm trying to make here because I definitely don't want to be around friends less. I think this is more of an internal thing- I just need to learn to be happy with myself. I'm really not THAT terrible and I know this, I just have to do a better job of convincing myself more of the time.