A Sore Subject

If you're walking up to Birchwood 7, you're likely to find a pool of rum and maybe a few bits of broken glass that I neglected to see last night when I tried to clean up my mess. I was walking home with my handle of bacardi and 3 bottles of champagne in Jess' backpack when, right as I was about to reach the stairs and almost be home, the rum flew out of the bag and collapsed onto the sidewalk. I was SO CLOSE and I am literally devastated. I can not believe that, of all things that could happen, this did. Now I have no rum for Renn Fayre. I don't want to be sad for thesis parade so I'm going to pretend that everything's fine, and if you read this please don't bring up the rum so that I can bask in my full denial. Let's just say it's a sore subject.

I wish I had a blue dress

I wonder if this is just a chemical imbalance. I guess everything is. It's all unconscious before it becomes conscious if it even gets that far, it's all neurons and synapses and finite physical matter. Emotions aren't the beasts we think they are. Yet we think our thoughts are indeterminate, that we have choice and control over what we do or think or feel. I want to believe that.

But on the other hand, I want to blame these feelings on something else. I want to tell myself that I'm just late coming down from the drug and I'm coming down hard and that it will soon be over. But I'm not completely sure that I've convinced myself. I just want to fill my room with a flood of tears and lie in a huddle in my bed forever. Sounds wonderful, right?

Someone, please, live this life for me. Just do it for me and do it right because I can't handle it. I can't handle all the work and complexity- I want it to be simple. I want to be rich and intelligent and have the perfect family in a perfect house with perfect friends. Why can't it be that easy? Why can't I deal with my emotions?

Yeah Clinton

Just got this e-mail:

Congratulations! You were picked to attend the Clinton lecture on Tuesday, April 17. Here are some more details for the evening. The faculty member attending will be Peter Steinberger and the staff member will be Sarah Parshley. Meet in the Student Services Office in Eliot 218 at 5pm. Peter and Sarah will drive you to the lecture at the Schnitzer Auditorium. Doors open at 5:30 for general admission seating and the lecture starts at 6:30. After the lecture, you will have dinner at the Park Kitchen in the Pearl District. You won't return to campus until late that evening.

IMPORTANT: if you are unable to attend this lecture, please let me know as soon as possible so that we can arrange for a replacement. There were 134 other students who wanted to attend, so please do not let this spot go to waste.

Enjoy the evening!



http://www.worldoregon.org/events/speaker2.php

Basically, Bill Clinton will be speaking in Portland and I was one of four Reedies chosen to go for free. My sentiments should be obvious.

I was looking at the foodnetwork.com website for recipes for my little Easter dinner tonight and I decided I need someone to make me these adorable cupcakes:

Strawberry-Lime Stuffed Cupcakes

New on youtube

My girls can dance.