Summer Resolutions

I'm no longer drinking soda or eating anything that tastes good.
Also, exercising is coming back. Big time.

Study Plans?

They've gone to shit. This paper is going slower than ever. I don't know why I can't concentrate; usually it just shoots out of me. I think I'm just so over school that I can't produce anything good anymore. I just have to get through Thursday. One more day.

Mainstream is the New Indie

I need to post this before it's no longer my favorite song.

Ridiculosity at its best:

Study Plans

Starting riiiight NOW

TUESDAY
1-2 eat lunch with Molly
2-4 Learning Research with/without caffeine
4-6 Write English paper on death scenes in Lolita/White Noise
6-7 Eat dinner?
7 Babysit, bring chem. and study until sleep or death, whichever comes first


WEDNESDAY
8:30-9 Eat, shower
9-12 Make revisions on English paper, write learning paper on research done on Tuesday
12-1 Eat lunch (or go out with Ray at one? Is there time?)
4:00 Psy 136 “The future of the dept” if I'm up for it
Rest of day- study chemistry. Do problems, study with Molly (?)

Now you can decide which times will be best to distract me. BUT, really really, don't distract me for long. A little is alright.

Fuuuck.

Finals are sucking balls right now. I need it to be Friday night. I am literally not going to be able to do anything until then. Eat, maybe. Why have I procrastinated ALL SEMESTER?!?!?

And I just realized I have to go to an autism training session (on working with autistic people) this Friday in mother fucking Hillsboro. I don't know how I'm going to get there but I really hope cab fare isn't going to empty my bank account. Fuuuck.

ADDITION:
I pretty much backed out of the autism thing. I know, I'm a bad person.

Renn Fayre 2K7

Natalie made a picture story that everyone should read. I agree with all the comments, so just pretend I'm saying them.

Click Here

Rico the Border Collie

I'm writing a paper on Rico the famous border collie from a Kaminski et al. study and I've decided I want one. I don't even especially love dogs, but look at these puppies. And they're the most intelligent dogs according to wikipedia.

Reading Week '07

I've been really bad this reading week, especially considering that it's already Thursday and I haven't even thought about work. Facebook has been sucking me in with all its Renn Fayre photos and I just can't seem to start working. But I've decided that right after I post this, I'm starting my English and/or Learning paper. I can't even start on Renn Fayre. Too much to tell. Pictures will come soon.

I went to Grout to read with Mrs. Roth's class for the last time today and, I'll admit, it was a tear-jerker. The kids were so cute and wonderful and showered me with hugs and gifts. More to come on volunteering things too.

A Sore Subject

If you're walking up to Birchwood 7, you're likely to find a pool of rum and maybe a few bits of broken glass that I neglected to see last night when I tried to clean up my mess. I was walking home with my handle of bacardi and 3 bottles of champagne in Jess' backpack when, right as I was about to reach the stairs and almost be home, the rum flew out of the bag and collapsed onto the sidewalk. I was SO CLOSE and I am literally devastated. I can not believe that, of all things that could happen, this did. Now I have no rum for Renn Fayre. I don't want to be sad for thesis parade so I'm going to pretend that everything's fine, and if you read this please don't bring up the rum so that I can bask in my full denial. Let's just say it's a sore subject.

I wish I had a blue dress

I wonder if this is just a chemical imbalance. I guess everything is. It's all unconscious before it becomes conscious if it even gets that far, it's all neurons and synapses and finite physical matter. Emotions aren't the beasts we think they are. Yet we think our thoughts are indeterminate, that we have choice and control over what we do or think or feel. I want to believe that.

But on the other hand, I want to blame these feelings on something else. I want to tell myself that I'm just late coming down from the drug and I'm coming down hard and that it will soon be over. But I'm not completely sure that I've convinced myself. I just want to fill my room with a flood of tears and lie in a huddle in my bed forever. Sounds wonderful, right?

Someone, please, live this life for me. Just do it for me and do it right because I can't handle it. I can't handle all the work and complexity- I want it to be simple. I want to be rich and intelligent and have the perfect family in a perfect house with perfect friends. Why can't it be that easy? Why can't I deal with my emotions?

Yeah Clinton

Just got this e-mail:

Congratulations! You were picked to attend the Clinton lecture on Tuesday, April 17. Here are some more details for the evening. The faculty member attending will be Peter Steinberger and the staff member will be Sarah Parshley. Meet in the Student Services Office in Eliot 218 at 5pm. Peter and Sarah will drive you to the lecture at the Schnitzer Auditorium. Doors open at 5:30 for general admission seating and the lecture starts at 6:30. After the lecture, you will have dinner at the Park Kitchen in the Pearl District. You won't return to campus until late that evening.

IMPORTANT: if you are unable to attend this lecture, please let me know as soon as possible so that we can arrange for a replacement. There were 134 other students who wanted to attend, so please do not let this spot go to waste.

Enjoy the evening!



http://www.worldoregon.org/events/speaker2.php

Basically, Bill Clinton will be speaking in Portland and I was one of four Reedies chosen to go for free. My sentiments should be obvious.

I was looking at the foodnetwork.com website for recipes for my little Easter dinner tonight and I decided I need someone to make me these adorable cupcakes:

Strawberry-Lime Stuffed Cupcakes

New on youtube

My girls can dance.

Drag Ball '07

Yeah, we're pretty hot.

Movie of the Month

If you haven't seen this yet, you are seriously missing out.



[Chorus]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

You're so fine
I want you mine
You're so delicious
I think about ya all the time
You're so addictive
Don't you know what I could do to make you feel alright?
(alright alright alright alright)
Don't pretend I think you know I'm damn precious
Hell yeah
I'm the mother (fucking) princess
I can tell you like me too and you know I'm right
(I'm right I'm right I'm right)

She's like so whatever
You could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about!

[Chorus]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

I can see the way, I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time again and again
(and again and again and again)
So come over here, tell me what I want to hear

Better yet make your girlfriend disappear
I don't want to hear you say her name ever again
(And again and again and again!)

She's like so whatever
You could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about!

[Chorus]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
Cause I can, cause I can do it better
There's no other
So when's it gonna sink in
She's so stupid
What the hell were you thinking?

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
Cause I can, cause I can do it better
There's no other
So when's it gonna sink in
She's so stupid
What the hell were you thinking?

[Chorus]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend
No Way No Way....

The weekend

Where did it go? I planned on working the entire time and ended up partying and sleeping instead. I only have a couple of workable hours left in the day and I have a paper due tomorrow, not to mention copious amounts of other classwork. Fuck.

Could I have mono? I hear it's going around.

My name

Statistically the 1425th most popular first name. (tied with 70 other first names)

I am so (not) popular. But why would I want to be like everyone else?

OK, enough procrastinating. I'm going back to work. 2 days until spring break!!!!

No more smoking/drinking on weeknights. Bad bad idea.

At least not until spring break.

DM in the House

My dad sends me this e-mail today (that he sent to many other people as well):
FYI: our special client Dave Matthews will be on 'House' tomorrow as
a special guest star...

I reply:
Umm...TOO BAD I DON'T OWN A TELEVISION. Yeah. Thanks a lot.

He replies back:
actually, it wasn't really meant for you - YOU HAVE TO STUDY! HAHAHAHA!


How cruel is that?