Carpal tunnel syndrome is a medical condition in which the median nerve is compressed at the wrist causing symptoms like tingling, pain, coldness, and sometimes weakness in parts of the hand. It is the best known of a class of disorders called repetitive strain injuries.
So my mom probably has carpal tunnel syndrome. I just found out today when she called me to ask what I want for Christmas. I told her that all I wanted was a new digital camera (since my old one was STOLEN) and I insisted that I couldn't live without one. She said "Aline, we can't just make money appear" and I told her that all I wanted was some money to build up to one eventually. I continued to complain, only thinking about myself and my "need" for a camera. Then she told me the news. She sees a neurologist in a couple days to confirm it. I feel so selfish for caring so much about a stupid camera when she has a REAL problem. Who the fuck am I to ask for anything? All I want for Christmas is...not my two front teeth, but for everyone to be safe and healthy.
A tear rolled down my cheek as I thought about what this would mean. As a dental hygienist, she uses her hands almost exclusively to work. With carpal tunnel syndrome, she wouldn't be able to work at all. I thought about how much she enjoys working, how she told me it was one of the few places that she could find peace. Concentrating on others' teeth, she could avoid the little problems at home and be really great at something without being insulted by my dad. I love my dad, but he doesn't give her credit for all that she does. At work, she's a hero- people request to see her, they love her, and she's always given the gratitude that she deserves.
She was planning on going back to medical school. I doubt that will be happening anytime soon.
I think of all the times we've gotten in fights and I wished horrible things on her. But she doesn't deserve this, she's such a good person. I'm so sorry. I love you mom.
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